What have you let stop you?
Fear? Anger? Pain? Doubt? Resentment? Lack of forgiveness? Feeling unworthy or incapable? Skepticism or cynicism? The list could go on and on.
How is it affecting your life? How is affecting your husband and marriage?
Is it helping you?
Let it go, whatever it is. Take a step, however small at first.. Take a chance.
Come out, come out, wherever you are, said Glinda to the Munchkins. See the miracle for yourself.